I'm a mess tonight.  I just found out (through deductive reasoning and overhearing a portion of a conversation) that my favorite supervisor at work is leaving.  It was kinda weird, but it has hit me pretty hard.  I talked with her a bit when Dad was really sick and I always knew that she was there for me.  If she has to leave I hope that it is for a better job or that her husband has found a job and that she has a good chance of a good job.  She is an awesome person that I have been blessed to know.

Is it strange or sad that I'm not really sure I want to stay on when/after she is gone?  I have a feeling that the whole attitude of the call center could change.  I had someone tell me today that I should apply for the position (since that was all part of my deductive reasoning), but I don't think that I want to.  First of all I don't have enough experience, in the right field.  Second of all, I don't know if this is the path that I want to stay on.  Mom and I have kicked around (just a little) the idea of moving away from the farm.  While in a way I don't want to let go of the farm, and I'm not sure how I would handle the suburbs, I don't think that I would mind a fresh start.  If we moved close to Dan & Katie I would be close enough to friends to have people to do things with again, which would be a major plus.  I just am not sure that I am ready to let go of Dad.

I think I need a cup of tea.