I have most of today off, which is awesome. Then my body woke me up at 6:30am because it was hungry (not awesome) then I went back to bed, had trouble getting warm again but went back to sleep to wake up sweaty around 9:30 (still a half-hour before my alarm was set to go off)....Grrrr Mr. Collins I wish you could just leave my body right now! (instead I have to put up with you for another 4 days...)
Other than that. We had band practice after a pot luck at church on Sunday and Mary (who plays the piano) introduced a new song for a women's trio (these guys do it as a quartet, but we're gonna wing it as a trio) called "I wish it would rain"
Here is the group that she took it from...they are called Triumphant Quartet.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CmlAbhma-v4
I can't wait...Dooo-wop here I come!
I picked up my car this morning from getting the front brakes replaced. Hmmm...yeah...they needed it. He showed me the roters, and they were metal to metal grinding...it wasn't pretty. But I no longer need to feel afraid to step on my breaks! YAY!
Right now I am waiting and starting to get excited about my hair cut in a half hour. I need one badly! I'm getting split ends which make my hair knotty...not good! And a hair cut is always a good self-esteem booster. I'll take a picture when I get back and edit it into the post...(hehe) along with a picture of my pretty little car...so you all can Ooooo and Awwww over God's provision in my life. (just kidding you don't have to oooo and awww I'm just a bit punchy right now, probably the fault of my body waking me up at 6:30 this morning. I'm exhausted still).
Anyway, I should go swap out my laundry so that I have clothes to wear tomorrow. That would be a good thing.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
knitting lessons
So, after spending two days on two different sized needles and still not having my gauge turn out correctly (apparently I knit very tightly) I have decided to forgo the poncho for the moment and instead focus on another pattern which is titled "Joel's Scarf" in the book I'm learning out of. It is loosely based off of a "Dr. Who" reference. I wish I knew more about Dr. Who but that in and of itself cracked me up...so yeah, poncho postponed until I can obtain a size US15 (or maybe even US17) circular needles...(sigh....)
In the meantime, I finished "Alice in Wonderland" and "Alice Through the Looking Glass" last week and after much consideration and picking up several books and starting an intriguing fantasy book set in 14th century china, I have decided to reread Jane Austen's Persuasion. I would almost say that it is my favorite Jane Austen book. The feelings of Anne I so understand (although I didn't jilt a fiancee 8 years ago) (at least I think I didn't)
Anyway, I am still in the beginning. It has just been decided that Sir Walter and Elizabeth shall move to Bath, and that they shall let the house to Admiral Croft. And the first mention of "him" has happened.
So I shall knit and read and keep you updated. And that is all that I have time for as my 15 minute break is just about over and I'm not supposed to be on the internet when I'm not on break....(sigh).
In the meantime, I finished "Alice in Wonderland" and "Alice Through the Looking Glass" last week and after much consideration and picking up several books and starting an intriguing fantasy book set in 14th century china, I have decided to reread Jane Austen's Persuasion. I would almost say that it is my favorite Jane Austen book. The feelings of Anne I so understand (although I didn't jilt a fiancee 8 years ago) (at least I think I didn't)
Anyway, I am still in the beginning. It has just been decided that Sir Walter and Elizabeth shall move to Bath, and that they shall let the house to Admiral Croft. And the first mention of "him" has happened.
So I shall knit and read and keep you updated. And that is all that I have time for as my 15 minute break is just about over and I'm not supposed to be on the internet when I'm not on break....(sigh).
Sunday, March 28, 2010
blaaaah
So I have to admit that working two part time jobs is severely limiting my social time. And by social time I mean the time I get to spend on the internet connecting with my friends. So I apologize for the lack of blogs the past several days (they have been getting pretty strict at work about internet usage {well, at least one of the leads is} and so I and been trying to be a good girl the past several days to prove I can be)...anyway a long story short, several late nights and feelings of exhaustion later I am still alive.
I had an awesome conversation with a co-worker Wednesday night. She works 3rd shift (all by herself) and comes in about the time I leave. Well, I was staying later because I hadn't been able to get there at my usual time. So we started talking and come to find out she's a Christian and spilling our life stories to each other I finally made it home after midnight (even though I finished work at 9:15). It was amazing and reaffirming and uplifting. And I'm reading the book of Job next...
Other than that, my life has been work, work, sleep, repeat...oh my new car REALLY needs it's front brakes re-done now so I'm hopefully getting that done this week. Then I have to work late on Saturday and then drive down to my brother's for Easter (which I am still not sure how I'll manage gas etc. along with brakes and the possibility of my bank account bouncing again). Why do I get myself into these situations?
Dad bug-bombed the house this morning before leaving for church, then we had a potluck, and the band practiced after the potluck. So it was a good time to do it, but Mom and I didn't know and I had a headache from sitting in front of the drum set anyway and the residual chemical smell of the fog made my headache that much worse.
I'm to the first color switch on my poncho, even though Mom isn't sure that the gauge is going to be right. If that is the case then I'll have to give it to my niece (even though it's not quite the right colors) I really hope it works for me! The yarn was expensive! I wanted to make one for Carissa but in the right colors (yellows and blues are her favorites...not red and charcoal gray). Oh and I'm on about my third huge mug of tea since coming home. Mmmmm...chocolate mint tea....
And that's all folks.
I had an awesome conversation with a co-worker Wednesday night. She works 3rd shift (all by herself) and comes in about the time I leave. Well, I was staying later because I hadn't been able to get there at my usual time. So we started talking and come to find out she's a Christian and spilling our life stories to each other I finally made it home after midnight (even though I finished work at 9:15). It was amazing and reaffirming and uplifting. And I'm reading the book of Job next...
Other than that, my life has been work, work, sleep, repeat...oh my new car REALLY needs it's front brakes re-done now so I'm hopefully getting that done this week. Then I have to work late on Saturday and then drive down to my brother's for Easter (which I am still not sure how I'll manage gas etc. along with brakes and the possibility of my bank account bouncing again). Why do I get myself into these situations?
Dad bug-bombed the house this morning before leaving for church, then we had a potluck, and the band practiced after the potluck. So it was a good time to do it, but Mom and I didn't know and I had a headache from sitting in front of the drum set anyway and the residual chemical smell of the fog made my headache that much worse.
I'm to the first color switch on my poncho, even though Mom isn't sure that the gauge is going to be right. If that is the case then I'll have to give it to my niece (even though it's not quite the right colors) I really hope it works for me! The yarn was expensive! I wanted to make one for Carissa but in the right colors (yellows and blues are her favorites...not red and charcoal gray). Oh and I'm on about my third huge mug of tea since coming home. Mmmmm...chocolate mint tea....
And that's all folks.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Saturday Night
For some reason, I get melancholy when I am alone in the house at night. Mom and Dad are visiting my Grandmother in Peoria, IL and staying over so it is just me and the cat (who left me a present in the hallway earlier) in this big, old house...Which I love this house, and I don't mind being alone but sometimes it just preys on you. Maybe it is because I am listening to beautiful but melancholy music. Not certain, but tonight there it is...
Worked this morning, (the lead was kinda touchy so it wasn't as fun as it could have been if I'd been working with Julie {she's my favorite lead}).Went to the library this afternoon after getting off work and read two "light" books this afternoon. Went and fed the animals and ate a frozen pizza. And that was my day.
I decided that the reason I don't love doing chores is I go out to the barn and what happens? Every single animal tells me what to do! The cat meowing insistently until I take it it's food, Frosty kicking at his pen until I give him his hay, the roosters just irritating me, the hen's sounding like a coffee percolator, the sheep bleating....why can't they just be patient?
I do love Frosty though. I spoil that big galug terribly...
Even though he really needs the attention of a curry comb and right now he has so much mud on his cheek it looks like he got in a fight and has a bruise (I thought that was funny).
Worked this morning, (the lead was kinda touchy so it wasn't as fun as it could have been if I'd been working with Julie {she's my favorite lead}).Went to the library this afternoon after getting off work and read two "light" books this afternoon. Went and fed the animals and ate a frozen pizza. And that was my day.
I decided that the reason I don't love doing chores is I go out to the barn and what happens? Every single animal tells me what to do! The cat meowing insistently until I take it it's food, Frosty kicking at his pen until I give him his hay, the roosters just irritating me, the hen's sounding like a coffee percolator, the sheep bleating....why can't they just be patient?
I do love Frosty though. I spoil that big galug terribly...
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Morning after meanderings...
Yesterday I went down and joined Pamela in the celebration of St. Patrick's Day in Rockton, IL. First we went to Rockton Inn where we listened to a mediocre Irish band (the lady wasn't even playing an Irish Flute and their enuciation was terrible) however, it was hilarious when they were instructing the totally non-interested audience how to clap to a song and the lady was saying "clap, clap, clap, clap" and then "Clap, clap" and then "clap" into her microphone while a lady at an adjoining table was ernestly attempting to follow the directions.
We had apple dumplings with caramel and vanilla icecream and I had a grasshopper while Pam had spiced hot chocolate. We were so full that we returned later for Pam's green beer (which she was unable to have) so she had a Killian's instead. I tried a new drink and like it. UVblue with Lemonade...it tasted kind of like blue raspberry and was yummy.
We talked a lot, which was really really good. And stayed up late (well for me).
Some of the talk started me to thinking again, however. We did talk a good bit about Timber-lee, because that's where we met and we've both been through some experiences there lately...and not so lately...but it got me to thinking. And really, Camping is where I have been the happiest in all of my work "life." I particularly would like to be involved in Christian Outdoor Education. So I have begun to look around on CCCA.org at their job listings.
It is a little frustrating because many of the positions listed at this time are summer positions, and I'm sort of past summer positions. It is hard to leave your job for 3 months and then come back and have to find another. I would love a position in guest services or a nature center environment or like I said, as an OE instructor. We'll have to see where this is going to lead (if anywhere) and where God is going to lead me.
In some ways I feel like I am supposed to be home with Mom and Dad right now, and yet I feel as though I am walking along the shores of the "Sea of Lonliness" and it is going on forever. I don't quite rightly know if I am just being impatient, but this is the desire that has been almost burning on my heart since many of my friends began posting that they would be returning to Timber-lee for this coming summer. While I don't exactly feel that Timber-lee is where I am supposed to be anymore, I would love to continue to serve somewhere in the wonderful and unique environment that Camping creates.
We had apple dumplings with caramel and vanilla icecream and I had a grasshopper while Pam had spiced hot chocolate. We were so full that we returned later for Pam's green beer (which she was unable to have) so she had a Killian's instead. I tried a new drink and like it. UVblue with Lemonade...it tasted kind of like blue raspberry and was yummy.
We talked a lot, which was really really good. And stayed up late (well for me).
Some of the talk started me to thinking again, however. We did talk a good bit about Timber-lee, because that's where we met and we've both been through some experiences there lately...and not so lately...but it got me to thinking. And really, Camping is where I have been the happiest in all of my work "life." I particularly would like to be involved in Christian Outdoor Education. So I have begun to look around on CCCA.org at their job listings.
It is a little frustrating because many of the positions listed at this time are summer positions, and I'm sort of past summer positions. It is hard to leave your job for 3 months and then come back and have to find another. I would love a position in guest services or a nature center environment or like I said, as an OE instructor. We'll have to see where this is going to lead (if anywhere) and where God is going to lead me.
In some ways I feel like I am supposed to be home with Mom and Dad right now, and yet I feel as though I am walking along the shores of the "Sea of Lonliness" and it is going on forever. I don't quite rightly know if I am just being impatient, but this is the desire that has been almost burning on my heart since many of my friends began posting that they would be returning to Timber-lee for this coming summer. While I don't exactly feel that Timber-lee is where I am supposed to be anymore, I would love to continue to serve somewhere in the wonderful and unique environment that Camping creates.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
oh what a day
Singing: "The sun is shining, the grass is green..." however there are no palm trees swaying here! And the only things that are green as of yet is the winter wheat that is beginning to sprout in some of the fields and the coniferous trees. But oh is it ever beautiful out! Makes me wish that I had more time between my 2 jobs. I get done here at 2, and then drive home (about a 1/2 hr) to go to work at my second job at 4 (Luckily that is only 5 minutes away). Though a few days this week I made need to change my shifts around in order to get a check of any amount next week.
I'm super excited now for tomorrow! Yay for friends and green beer(?) Well, okay so Yay for friends....we'll see about the green beer. Maybe I can get away with a grasshopper instead :) But I am excited to hang out with Pamela! What a way to spend St. Patty's Day!
So, there is this one guy who works with me here at Duluth Trading Co. and he kinda creeps me out. I feel like he's always scoping me out when I walk past him. Unfortunately I now see him sometimes when I go to my favorite place in the world too. (Barnes and Noble if you were wondering) He's got a very loud voice so no matter where I sit in the call center I can hear him. Grrrr....why is it that the guys I attract are the absolute opposite of the ones I want to attract? Every guy who has ever been interested in me has been not what I wanted. Creepy, ugly beyond all reason, etc... (and it isn't like I'm looking....for the most part I am content with my life as it stands...) Anyway, there you have it....I attract creeps....
I wore a new pair of yellow wedges (totally me shoes) yesterday around New Glarus, and decided to walk in them. HA, great idea Lois. I gave myself 2 small blisters on one foot. But I figure now I'll have callouses in those areas and it won't bother me anymore. (silly silly silly....there is a reason that my sister's call me the "Queen of Impracticle Footwear") but I still love the yellow shoes...they are springy and fun! (I'll edit and post a picture of them)
Anywho....so today I am wearing the other pair of new shoes that I bought, turquoise peep toe wedges, equally silly, though they have yet to add to my blister population. They go beautifully with the 2 new shirts I bought (yay for fun new spring clothes!) I'll have to post those as well....because I coordinate like you wouldn't believe (hehehe)
Now I am just rambling...so I'm going to stop....for now...
I'm super excited now for tomorrow! Yay for friends and green beer(?) Well, okay so Yay for friends....we'll see about the green beer. Maybe I can get away with a grasshopper instead :) But I am excited to hang out with Pamela! What a way to spend St. Patty's Day!
So, there is this one guy who works with me here at Duluth Trading Co. and he kinda creeps me out. I feel like he's always scoping me out when I walk past him. Unfortunately I now see him sometimes when I go to my favorite place in the world too. (Barnes and Noble if you were wondering) He's got a very loud voice so no matter where I sit in the call center I can hear him. Grrrr....why is it that the guys I attract are the absolute opposite of the ones I want to attract? Every guy who has ever been interested in me has been not what I wanted. Creepy, ugly beyond all reason, etc... (and it isn't like I'm looking....for the most part I am content with my life as it stands...) Anyway, there you have it....I attract creeps....
I wore a new pair of yellow wedges (totally me shoes) yesterday around New Glarus, and decided to walk in them. HA, great idea Lois. I gave myself 2 small blisters on one foot. But I figure now I'll have callouses in those areas and it won't bother me anymore. (silly silly silly....there is a reason that my sister's call me the "Queen of Impracticle Footwear") but I still love the yellow shoes...they are springy and fun! (I'll edit and post a picture of them)
Anywho....so today I am wearing the other pair of new shoes that I bought, turquoise peep toe wedges, equally silly, though they have yet to add to my blister population. They go beautifully with the 2 new shirts I bought (yay for fun new spring clothes!) I'll have to post those as well....because I coordinate like you wouldn't believe (hehehe)
Now I am just rambling...so I'm going to stop....for now...
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Rainy Thursday Morning
It is March and it is raining, which means flooded rivers and the returns of some of my favorite species of birds.
This morning, I had to drive the truck "Larry" in to town in order to get enough gas that I could drive to work. So I pull into our little local gas station (he offers a 3 cent discount if you pay cash...) and the owner is coming out to replace the receipt tape in the pump so we passed the time of day, while he helped me (the vent in my gas tank was being mean and only allowing me to put about 2cents worth of gas in at a time.) and so I shared with him that I was excited that my favorite birds were back...which are the Sandhill Cranes (of course). I loved hearing and seeing them at Timber-lee and the spring I was in the LCM program there was actually a pair that were nesting out by the bridge farthest from family camp. I loved taking the children out to see them, especially since there was a Canadian Goose sitting on a nest on the other side of the bridge.
I kind of wanted to laugh, for Jerry's (the owner) comment was that they ate the baby trout that were being repopulated in the streams and lakes and then he started talking about how some land north of us had certain hunting/fishing restrictions on it because the people wanted to protect certain species of animals...
This was my thought....Let them eat the fish! That's what they do! It's there way! I'd rather see the sandhill cranes than worry about the quality of the fishing waters around us. As for hunting, I eat wild meat, but I don't hunt it....so I don't really care. I highly doubt (when I have my english cottage in the country and if I have any property) that I will allow hunting on my property. It has been a bit of a bane of my existence, the rash of deer hunters the few days before Thanksgiving...
I started to read 1st Samuel, after finishing Ruth. I was a bad girl and didn't read yesterday, and in a way I can feel the results of it today. Anyway, after reading Esther, Ruth and the beginning of 1st Samuel (Particularly the calling of Samuel by God) I'm picking up a bit of a pattern. Esther faced the King, even though it could have meant her death, to save her people. Ruth turned her back entirely on her people and family to return with Naomi, her husband's mother, and Samuel, given over to the Lord by his mother, was called by the Lord to serve his purposes.
In light of this, and in light of reading "Hinds' Feet on High Places" I know that I am headed in a good and right direction. I went on Amazon today and purchased C.S. Lewis' "Surprised by Joy" today. I had gotten it from the library and while I had thoroughly enjoyed the portion I had read, I wasn't able to finish it before I had to send it back. And from what I have read thus far, it is a book that I want to own for myself. I also want to re-read "Hinds' Feet.." because I read it at work I feel I missed a good portion of important details.
It is raining, hard at times and then it lessens up again...as I look out at the leaden sky it makes me think (as rain generally does nowadays) of Natalie Portman's character in "V for Vendetta" and the scene where she is standing on the room with her arms outstretched her face up to the pouring rain...and the phrase that she utters is one that is repeated just about everytime it rains "God is in the Rain."
So, as I look at the swollen rivers, carrying their burdens or rain and melting snow I see the power of God manifested. He is the one who created our earth, and who (to quote Chris Rice) "tilt it at our perfect 23."
So bring on the rain! Bring on the changing of the seasons! Bring on the Sandhill Cranes! Bring on the SPRING!
Saw an old guy today
Staring long at a chess game
Looked like it was half-played
Then his tear splashed between
The bishop and the king...oh
He turned his face to mine
I saw the Question in his eyes
I shrugged him half a smile and walked away
It made me sad, and it made me think
And now it makes me sing what I believe
It was love that set this fragile planet rolling
Tilting at our perfect twenty-three
Molecules and men infused with holy
Finding our way around the galaxy
And Paradise has up and flown away for now
But hope still breathes and truth is always true
And just when we think it's almost over
Love has the final move
Love has the final move
Heard a young girl sing a song
To her daughter in her pale arms
Walkin' through a rainstorm
"Because you're here my little girl
It's gonna be a better world"...oh
She turned her face to mine
I saw the Answer in her eyes
I shrugged her half a smile and walked away
It made me smile, and it made me think
And now it makes me sing what I believe
It was love that set our fragile planet rolling
Tilting at our perfect twenty-three
Molecules and men infused with holy
Finding our way around the galaxy
And Paradise has up and flown away for now
But hope still breathes and truth is always true
And just when we think it's almost over
Love has the final move
Love has the final move
(Something right went very wrong
But love has been here all along)
~Chris Rice "The Final Move"
This morning, I had to drive the truck "Larry" in to town in order to get enough gas that I could drive to work. So I pull into our little local gas station (he offers a 3 cent discount if you pay cash...) and the owner is coming out to replace the receipt tape in the pump so we passed the time of day, while he helped me (the vent in my gas tank was being mean and only allowing me to put about 2cents worth of gas in at a time.) and so I shared with him that I was excited that my favorite birds were back...which are the Sandhill Cranes (of course). I loved hearing and seeing them at Timber-lee and the spring I was in the LCM program there was actually a pair that were nesting out by the bridge farthest from family camp. I loved taking the children out to see them, especially since there was a Canadian Goose sitting on a nest on the other side of the bridge.
I kind of wanted to laugh, for Jerry's (the owner) comment was that they ate the baby trout that were being repopulated in the streams and lakes and then he started talking about how some land north of us had certain hunting/fishing restrictions on it because the people wanted to protect certain species of animals...
This was my thought....Let them eat the fish! That's what they do! It's there way! I'd rather see the sandhill cranes than worry about the quality of the fishing waters around us. As for hunting, I eat wild meat, but I don't hunt it....so I don't really care. I highly doubt (when I have my english cottage in the country and if I have any property) that I will allow hunting on my property. It has been a bit of a bane of my existence, the rash of deer hunters the few days before Thanksgiving...
I started to read 1st Samuel, after finishing Ruth. I was a bad girl and didn't read yesterday, and in a way I can feel the results of it today. Anyway, after reading Esther, Ruth and the beginning of 1st Samuel (Particularly the calling of Samuel by God) I'm picking up a bit of a pattern. Esther faced the King, even though it could have meant her death, to save her people. Ruth turned her back entirely on her people and family to return with Naomi, her husband's mother, and Samuel, given over to the Lord by his mother, was called by the Lord to serve his purposes.
In light of this, and in light of reading "Hinds' Feet on High Places" I know that I am headed in a good and right direction. I went on Amazon today and purchased C.S. Lewis' "Surprised by Joy" today. I had gotten it from the library and while I had thoroughly enjoyed the portion I had read, I wasn't able to finish it before I had to send it back. And from what I have read thus far, it is a book that I want to own for myself. I also want to re-read "Hinds' Feet.." because I read it at work I feel I missed a good portion of important details.
It is raining, hard at times and then it lessens up again...as I look out at the leaden sky it makes me think (as rain generally does nowadays) of Natalie Portman's character in "V for Vendetta" and the scene where she is standing on the room with her arms outstretched her face up to the pouring rain...and the phrase that she utters is one that is repeated just about everytime it rains "God is in the Rain."
So, as I look at the swollen rivers, carrying their burdens or rain and melting snow I see the power of God manifested. He is the one who created our earth, and who (to quote Chris Rice) "tilt it at our perfect 23."
So bring on the rain! Bring on the changing of the seasons! Bring on the Sandhill Cranes! Bring on the SPRING!
Saw an old guy today
Staring long at a chess game
Looked like it was half-played
Then his tear splashed between
The bishop and the king...oh
He turned his face to mine
I saw the Question in his eyes
I shrugged him half a smile and walked away
It made me sad, and it made me think
And now it makes me sing what I believe
It was love that set this fragile planet rolling
Tilting at our perfect twenty-three
Molecules and men infused with holy
Finding our way around the galaxy
And Paradise has up and flown away for now
But hope still breathes and truth is always true
And just when we think it's almost over
Love has the final move
Love has the final move
Heard a young girl sing a song
To her daughter in her pale arms
Walkin' through a rainstorm
"Because you're here my little girl
It's gonna be a better world"...oh
She turned her face to mine
I saw the Answer in her eyes
I shrugged her half a smile and walked away
It made me smile, and it made me think
And now it makes me sing what I believe
It was love that set our fragile planet rolling
Tilting at our perfect twenty-three
Molecules and men infused with holy
Finding our way around the galaxy
And Paradise has up and flown away for now
But hope still breathes and truth is always true
And just when we think it's almost over
Love has the final move
Love has the final move
(Something right went very wrong
But love has been here all along)
~Chris Rice "The Final Move"
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Fun
So I just came across a fun website. I totally want some of this furniture in our cottage....how much fun would that be???
http://www.dustfurniture.com/gallery.htm
http://www.dustfurniture.com/gallery.htm
Monday, March 8, 2010
My Weekend
This last weekend I traveled with my parents to visit my sister in Plainview, Minnesota (just north of Rochester). We left the house Saturday morning around 5:30 am. I managed to sleep until we reached La Crosse, with only about an hour and a half of the journey remaining.
Rose worked on Saturday so we met her at the Culver's she worked at and hung out for a bit before she had
to get to work. Then we headed North to Plainview to meet up with Rose's fiancee's parents (who are good friends of mom and dad's now).
While Dad hung out with Tony, Mom, Jan and I went to scope out the reception hall for the wedding. It is the same place that Jan and Tony had their reception dance. It has beautiful views out onto Lake Peppin (which was frozen over at the time) we drove through the beautiful foothills of the Mississippi river valley, looking around at Lake City, before traveling to St. Charles, MN to stop at Wild Rose Bridal which is in an old catholic church. There I tried on some more dresses, trying to find a cheaper alternative to the dress we found near home. I think I found one, or rather two, though the second is not all that much cheaper than the first one. After that we returned to Jan and Tony's house and I enjoyed their dogs for a while while Jan and Mom talked wedding talk and Dad and Tony enjoyed Denver and the Mile High Orchestra and looked at car magazines. After a while we ate supper, mom made Italian Wedding Soup and it was delicious (as per usual).
The I met Rose at a kwik trip about halfway in between Rochester and Plainview to go and see Alice in Wonderland. We didn't make the first showing so Rose took me downtown to show me the Most Amazing Barnes and Noble I've ever seen. Unfortunately we weren't able to go inside as it closes ridiculiously early. It was renovated from an old theatre and has retained many of the theatre architecture. Then we made our way to Chateau theater and enjoyed the movie.
It was awesome! It totally was not what I was expecting, but WAY exceeded my expectations. I had expected it to be a super trippy rendition of the Disney Alice in Wonderland, and instead it was more Alice through the Looking Glass meets the Jabberwocky. The characters were a lot deeper than I had assumed they would be, Johnny Depp was amazing as the Mad Hatter, and Alice was wonderful. Stephen Fry (who I absolutely love) played the voice of the Cheshire Cat and Doormouse was amazingly full of spitfire. While I wouldn't recommend it to anyone who was taking a child under the age of 13, it was fabulous.
I stayed over with Rose at her Houseparent's home and met their psycho kitty whose name is Alice and who reminded me of Alice from Twilight (yes I did watch the first movie and Rose has continued to pressure me into reading the books, but I have thus far withheld against the assault.)
Sunday we went to Rose's church and the music and my state of exhaustion hit me really hard. They had really great songs and I choked up a lot while singing. The sermon was also really good. I got to meet several people who are going to be in the wedding as well as having faces to put to names.
After church we went back to Tony & Jan's for mexican and hanging out. For a while they talked wedding talk with Rose and Johnny and then Johnny had to go to work and Rose and mom talked more while Dad and Tony watched Nascar. I had a roaring headache at that point, and sat in the recliner with my hat over my eyes. We left after 4:30 and made our way home. Again I slept in the car for about 2 hrs, waking with a little reprieve from my headache.
It was nice to be home again, and I remade my bed and sat down and read a book before going to sleep. This morning I had breakfast and went to work at 11:30. It was the kind of morning that I would have loved to have stayed home and enjoyed some quiet time with a book by a fire. The fog had rolled in so thick that you almost felt as though you were the only person on the face of the earth. While it closed you in, it was a comfortable kind of sensation. It made me want to have someone to share it with.
Now, I am finding myself fighting the roaring monster of my headache again...Tomorrow I have the day off from Duluth and work 4-8 at my new job.
Maybe I'll make scones tomorrow...
Rose worked on Saturday so we met her at the Culver's she worked at and hung out for a bit before she had
to get to work. Then we headed North to Plainview to meet up with Rose's fiancee's parents (who are good friends of mom and dad's now).
While Dad hung out with Tony, Mom, Jan and I went to scope out the reception hall for the wedding. It is the same place that Jan and Tony had their reception dance. It has beautiful views out onto Lake Peppin (which was frozen over at the time) we drove through the beautiful foothills of the Mississippi river valley, looking around at Lake City, before traveling to St. Charles, MN to stop at Wild Rose Bridal which is in an old catholic church. There I tried on some more dresses, trying to find a cheaper alternative to the dress we found near home. I think I found one, or rather two, though the second is not all that much cheaper than the first one. After that we returned to Jan and Tony's house and I enjoyed their dogs for a while while Jan and Mom talked wedding talk and Dad and Tony enjoyed Denver and the Mile High Orchestra and looked at car magazines. After a while we ate supper, mom made Italian Wedding Soup and it was delicious (as per usual).
The I met Rose at a kwik trip about halfway in between Rochester and Plainview to go and see Alice in Wonderland. We didn't make the first showing so Rose took me downtown to show me the Most Amazing Barnes and Noble I've ever seen. Unfortunately we weren't able to go inside as it closes ridiculiously early. It was renovated from an old theatre and has retained many of the theatre architecture. Then we made our way to Chateau theater and enjoyed the movie.
It was awesome! It totally was not what I was expecting, but WAY exceeded my expectations. I had expected it to be a super trippy rendition of the Disney Alice in Wonderland, and instead it was more Alice through the Looking Glass meets the Jabberwocky. The characters were a lot deeper than I had assumed they would be, Johnny Depp was amazing as the Mad Hatter, and Alice was wonderful. Stephen Fry (who I absolutely love) played the voice of the Cheshire Cat and Doormouse was amazingly full of spitfire. While I wouldn't recommend it to anyone who was taking a child under the age of 13, it was fabulous.
I stayed over with Rose at her Houseparent's home and met their psycho kitty whose name is Alice and who reminded me of Alice from Twilight (yes I did watch the first movie and Rose has continued to pressure me into reading the books, but I have thus far withheld against the assault.)
Sunday we went to Rose's church and the music and my state of exhaustion hit me really hard. They had really great songs and I choked up a lot while singing. The sermon was also really good. I got to meet several people who are going to be in the wedding as well as having faces to put to names.
After church we went back to Tony & Jan's for mexican and hanging out. For a while they talked wedding talk with Rose and Johnny and then Johnny had to go to work and Rose and mom talked more while Dad and Tony watched Nascar. I had a roaring headache at that point, and sat in the recliner with my hat over my eyes. We left after 4:30 and made our way home. Again I slept in the car for about 2 hrs, waking with a little reprieve from my headache.
It was nice to be home again, and I remade my bed and sat down and read a book before going to sleep. This morning I had breakfast and went to work at 11:30. It was the kind of morning that I would have loved to have stayed home and enjoyed some quiet time with a book by a fire. The fog had rolled in so thick that you almost felt as though you were the only person on the face of the earth. While it closed you in, it was a comfortable kind of sensation. It made me want to have someone to share it with.
Now, I am finding myself fighting the roaring monster of my headache again...Tomorrow I have the day off from Duluth and work 4-8 at my new job.
Maybe I'll make scones tomorrow...
Friday, March 5, 2010
Bored
Okay, so now the calls have slowed to the point where I am just bored. With the prospect of getting up so obscenely early tomorrow and still having to pack this evening, I'm not too excited over the fact. Especially since I won't even arrive home until close to 9:15.
On the brighter side, I am wearing a Sesame Street shirt today. It's a mock newspaper and one of the little articles on my chest reads "Bert becomes a Pigeon?" which cracks me up.
Did you know that Bert and Ernie are named after the cops in "It's a wonderful life?" well, now you do. Just one of countless millions of usless facts that freely roam my brain. I retain the most odd bits of knowledge.
I do get to finish listening to "The Cat Who Went Into the Closet" when I get home. I really don't care if I have 2 CD's left, I'm finishing it tonight. The plot has just thickened again. James Mackintosh Qwilleran (Qwill) and Ko Kau Kum (Koko) have to figure out why Mrs. Gage committed "suicide" and what happened to poor potato farmer Mr. Inchpot....I suspect fowl play and Koko keeps finding strange things in one of the 50 closets in the mansion that they are living in.....very entertaining to listen to.
The sky is completely dark now. I cannot wait until the evening light stretches itself out over the landscape, gilding everything with its warm golden light until almost 8:00 at night. When you are sitting on the porch swing, with a nice cool glass of ice tea, enjoying the evening bird songs while enjoying the panoramic view laid out before you.
I got a cup of mandarin oranges today to eat at work (as opposed to the Zebra cake I ate earlier....I was trying to be healthy, which failed) (the fruit.....not the zebra cake)
But this is what I was saying, I opened the lid and there is a tiny, two piece, collapsable fork in the lid! How ingenious....I shall now spear the tiny orange segments with an equally tiny fork! And it is even better than that. It isn't in two pieces, rather hinged! so I can keep it and reuse it and re-amuse myself ALL over again!
The other thing that has been amusing me today is my pen. It's one of those pens that has four colors in it and you push down the little button on the top to choose your color...it is the little things in life that make it humorous...
Mmmm oatmeal cream pie, why? Because I'm bored and therefore I'm eating....not a good thing I know but soooo yummy...
Music from the three medley's that Carol Burnett and Julie Andrews did keep running through my head....probably because I've seen them so many times in the past few days. But they are just sooo goood! And I have an immense ammount of respect for the comedic genius that is Carol Burnett as well as the wonderful talent of Julie Andrews...together they are simply enchanting!
"...tell you again...who's bad!" (Julie Andrews impersonating Michael Jackson, hilarious!)
On the brighter side, I am wearing a Sesame Street shirt today. It's a mock newspaper and one of the little articles on my chest reads "Bert becomes a Pigeon?" which cracks me up.
Did you know that Bert and Ernie are named after the cops in "It's a wonderful life?" well, now you do. Just one of countless millions of usless facts that freely roam my brain. I retain the most odd bits of knowledge.
I do get to finish listening to "The Cat Who Went Into the Closet" when I get home. I really don't care if I have 2 CD's left, I'm finishing it tonight. The plot has just thickened again. James Mackintosh Qwilleran (Qwill) and Ko Kau Kum (Koko) have to figure out why Mrs. Gage committed "suicide" and what happened to poor potato farmer Mr. Inchpot....I suspect fowl play and Koko keeps finding strange things in one of the 50 closets in the mansion that they are living in.....very entertaining to listen to.
The sky is completely dark now. I cannot wait until the evening light stretches itself out over the landscape, gilding everything with its warm golden light until almost 8:00 at night. When you are sitting on the porch swing, with a nice cool glass of ice tea, enjoying the evening bird songs while enjoying the panoramic view laid out before you.
I got a cup of mandarin oranges today to eat at work (as opposed to the Zebra cake I ate earlier....I was trying to be healthy, which failed) (the fruit.....not the zebra cake)
But this is what I was saying, I opened the lid and there is a tiny, two piece, collapsable fork in the lid! How ingenious....I shall now spear the tiny orange segments with an equally tiny fork! And it is even better than that. It isn't in two pieces, rather hinged! so I can keep it and reuse it and re-amuse myself ALL over again!
The other thing that has been amusing me today is my pen. It's one of those pens that has four colors in it and you push down the little button on the top to choose your color...it is the little things in life that make it humorous...
Mmmm oatmeal cream pie, why? Because I'm bored and therefore I'm eating....not a good thing I know but soooo yummy...
Music from the three medley's that Carol Burnett and Julie Andrews did keep running through my head....probably because I've seen them so many times in the past few days. But they are just sooo goood! And I have an immense ammount of respect for the comedic genius that is Carol Burnett as well as the wonderful talent of Julie Andrews...together they are simply enchanting!
"...tell you again...who's bad!" (Julie Andrews impersonating Michael Jackson, hilarious!)
So, instead of eating I went for a brisk 15ish minute walk. It is beautiful outside. It was just cold enough to make my cheeks and ears red, and warm enough to enjoy the possibility that spring really is around the corner. As I was walking two geese flew over my head and the tips of their wings in the setting sun flashed like diamonds. It was really quite beautiful.
Now I am back in my cubicle, eating Blackberry Harvest Yoplait yogurt, and anticipating another 3.5 hrs of work before I go home, to pack my bags to wake up ridiculiously early tomorrow morning (Dad wants to be on the road at 5:30 at the latest) to drive the 4-some hours to visit Rosie!!!!
YAY!
Even though it does mean that I won't be at camp with my friends.
BOO!
Because I would love to be there and see them as well. Why can't I have my cake and eat it too?
Now I am back in my cubicle, eating Blackberry Harvest Yoplait yogurt, and anticipating another 3.5 hrs of work before I go home, to pack my bags to wake up ridiculiously early tomorrow morning (Dad wants to be on the road at 5:30 at the latest) to drive the 4-some hours to visit Rosie!!!!
YAY!
Even though it does mean that I won't be at camp with my friends.
BOO!
Because I would love to be there and see them as well. Why can't I have my cake and eat it too?
new advetnures
So today I had training for another part time job in the area. Someone local has a small business packaging alfalfa pellets for Kaytee pet foods and Kaytee has landed a contract with Walmart and he has to up his output from 1/2 million to 1.5 million 1lb bags of alfalfa pellets. So, simply put I go in and package the cubes in the plastic bags, seal the bags, stack them, date them....maybe later I'll also learn how to box them... I don't know. It's only minimum wage, but it will work into my schedule and it's close to home. At the moment, I'm scheduled 4 days a week, working a 4 hour shift from 4-8pm. Everyone else is leaving at 6 at the moment, so I'll be by myself for 2 hours, but I really don't mind, so long as I have music.
Mom, Dad & I are leaving tomorrow morning at an unearthly hour to drive up to Rochester, MN and visit with Rosie/Johnny and his parents (Tony & Jan). It'll be good to see my baby sister, and she and I are going to go see "Alice in Wonderland" while we're there. I'm excited and aprenhensive at the same time.
Some of you have heard my diatrade on how I am frustrated that most people assume that Lewis Carrol was on drugs in order to write "Alice in Wonderland." Part of me wants to smack these people (No harm intended, just knock a little sense into them)
But I will save that diatrade for later...this is the condensed version:
I find it incredibly insulting to the writing profession in general to assume that someone had to be on drugs in order to create something completely imaginative and unusual.
The extended version will come later :D
Now I'm off to go back and be bored at work (my other job, obviously, not the new one)...
Five minutes until I go on lunch break to eat my supper (haha)
Mom, Dad & I are leaving tomorrow morning at an unearthly hour to drive up to Rochester, MN and visit with Rosie/Johnny and his parents (Tony & Jan). It'll be good to see my baby sister, and she and I are going to go see "Alice in Wonderland" while we're there. I'm excited and aprenhensive at the same time.
Some of you have heard my diatrade on how I am frustrated that most people assume that Lewis Carrol was on drugs in order to write "Alice in Wonderland." Part of me wants to smack these people (No harm intended, just knock a little sense into them)
But I will save that diatrade for later...this is the condensed version:
I find it incredibly insulting to the writing profession in general to assume that someone had to be on drugs in order to create something completely imaginative and unusual.
The extended version will come later :D
Now I'm off to go back and be bored at work (my other job, obviously, not the new one)...
Five minutes until I go on lunch break to eat my supper (haha)
Thursday, March 4, 2010
So I finished "Hinds' feet on high places" today, though I want to read through it again. I read a good portion at work and would get interrupted at the most awkward places when I would rather continue reading than talk to the customer, but that's my job....I feel that in some ways I missed very vital things this way...so round two here I come!
And next comes the book of Ruth, partly because the Shepherd in Hinds' feet quotes so much amazing scripture and quotes Ruth "Do not urge me to leave you or to return from following you. For where you go I will go, and where you lodge I will lodge. Your people shall be my people and your God my God. Where you die I will die, and there will I be buried. May the Lord do so to me and more if anything but death parts me from you." Ruth 1:16-17
So in a way you were right in both respects.
In many ways today was a good day. Even though I stayed up WAY too late last night reading and then could not fall asleep. I just lay there watching the moonlight spill across my room. It wasn't restless, though I knew that I should be asleep and that I would be tired today...but I was content.
Again today I had the realization that it is not a bad thing to be alone. In someways, I wonder if the Lord is having me walk along the Sea of Loneliness right now. Though Pride, Self-Pity, Bitterness and the others whose names I can't recall at the moment haven't been poking their heads out as much as they plagued Much-Afraid (at least I don't think they have. They are a little sneakier in my life than they were in Much-Afraid's experience.)
So many things that she went through I can see myself struggling through, and I can only hope and pray that I will come through the fire as triumphantly as Much-Afraid and be renamed "Grace and Glory."
Driving home today was wonderful, I was listening to Jenifer Knapp's song, "Peace"
http://www.youtube.com/watch#!videos=qL5TOZYigts&v=NUt-_0pD1T4
(This was the best version of it I could find)
I was looking around me at rolling hills slightly misted in the distance. This morning on my way to work the sun was rising. I love the blue/lavender tints that the sky has just before the sun rises. Then you throw in a dash of coral and fuchsia and the sky takes on golden lights as the sun continues to crest the horizon. Even though it was dashed early, It was beautiful and peaceful...
Anyway, I am simply rambling now. And partly why I mention you so much Pam is that I know you read it and in a way it's my conversation between you and I (since almost no one else reads my blog...)
And next comes the book of Ruth, partly because the Shepherd in Hinds' feet quotes so much amazing scripture and quotes Ruth "Do not urge me to leave you or to return from following you. For where you go I will go, and where you lodge I will lodge. Your people shall be my people and your God my God. Where you die I will die, and there will I be buried. May the Lord do so to me and more if anything but death parts me from you." Ruth 1:16-17
So in a way you were right in both respects.
In many ways today was a good day. Even though I stayed up WAY too late last night reading and then could not fall asleep. I just lay there watching the moonlight spill across my room. It wasn't restless, though I knew that I should be asleep and that I would be tired today...but I was content.
Again today I had the realization that it is not a bad thing to be alone. In someways, I wonder if the Lord is having me walk along the Sea of Loneliness right now. Though Pride, Self-Pity, Bitterness and the others whose names I can't recall at the moment haven't been poking their heads out as much as they plagued Much-Afraid (at least I don't think they have. They are a little sneakier in my life than they were in Much-Afraid's experience.)
So many things that she went through I can see myself struggling through, and I can only hope and pray that I will come through the fire as triumphantly as Much-Afraid and be renamed "Grace and Glory."
Driving home today was wonderful, I was listening to Jenifer Knapp's song, "Peace"
http://www.youtube.com/watch#!videos=qL5TOZYigts&v=NUt-_0pD1T4
(This was the best version of it I could find)
I was looking around me at rolling hills slightly misted in the distance. This morning on my way to work the sun was rising. I love the blue/lavender tints that the sky has just before the sun rises. Then you throw in a dash of coral and fuchsia and the sky takes on golden lights as the sun continues to crest the horizon. Even though it was dashed early, It was beautiful and peaceful...
Anyway, I am simply rambling now. And partly why I mention you so much Pam is that I know you read it and in a way it's my conversation between you and I (since almost no one else reads my blog...)
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Today I am feeling sucky. I had forgotten to pull my curtain closed last night and woke up with a headache and the morning sun sharp on my face. On top of that, the curse of Eve is laying a heavy hand on my abdomen. I'm sitting at work with a can of coke, a Hershey's cookies'n'creme candy bar and a package of pretzel and cheese combos. Not to mention the two butterfinger crisps that are in my lunch back with my gingerbread scone....I'd say that I'm craving....cramping and probably a little crabby. Thankfully I'll get to go home to a quiet house for a while tonight.
I read the first four chapters of Esther last night. It was almost as though I had never read it before, because I am using an English Standard bible now. At this point, Mordecai just saved the king from the Eunich's who wanted to do him in, and Hamman has designed to kill all of the jews....the plot thickens...thank's for the recommendation Pam. I haven't been dilligent about reading my bible and it is a habit that I want to kick and rectify.
Oh yeah, and I'm starting to read "hinds' feet on high places" (partly because of your mention in your last post Pam)...
Last night I showed my dad the video clip of Julie Andrews and Carol Burnett singing the History of Musical Comedy at Carnegie Hall. He thoroughly enjoyed it. Then I showed him the clip of the 2 of them singing "You're so London" and it kinda reminded me of the differences between you and I Pam, which made me chuckle. Not that either of us is like those two amazingly funny ladies, but they were so different and yet such good friends. And the song is adorable.
So that's my 2 cents for now. I should really get back to work like I am supposed to be doing. Good luck with your job interview, Pam! I really hope you get it. I understand the need. I'll be getting my new car anyday now and am absolutely thrilled to change from the truck (Which maybe gets 14mpg) to my new little car (which is supposed to get 32mpg) oh what a relief to my gas bill...
I read the first four chapters of Esther last night. It was almost as though I had never read it before, because I am using an English Standard bible now. At this point, Mordecai just saved the king from the Eunich's who wanted to do him in, and Hamman has designed to kill all of the jews....the plot thickens...thank's for the recommendation Pam. I haven't been dilligent about reading my bible and it is a habit that I want to kick and rectify.
Oh yeah, and I'm starting to read "hinds' feet on high places" (partly because of your mention in your last post Pam)...
Last night I showed my dad the video clip of Julie Andrews and Carol Burnett singing the History of Musical Comedy at Carnegie Hall. He thoroughly enjoyed it. Then I showed him the clip of the 2 of them singing "You're so London" and it kinda reminded me of the differences between you and I Pam, which made me chuckle. Not that either of us is like those two amazingly funny ladies, but they were so different and yet such good friends. And the song is adorable.
So that's my 2 cents for now. I should really get back to work like I am supposed to be doing. Good luck with your job interview, Pam! I really hope you get it. I understand the need. I'll be getting my new car anyday now and am absolutely thrilled to change from the truck (Which maybe gets 14mpg) to my new little car (which is supposed to get 32mpg) oh what a relief to my gas bill...
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Dreams
So, I've been thinking the past several days about cottage gardens and looked up certain elements of each...the fun part of course is the dreaming.
Well, at home we have this old corn crib, sitting on an octagonal concrete base. Last year my mom and niece came up with the idea to turn it into a summer house with plants growing up it...and we did to an extent. The mosquitoes were quite bad (something I'm going to try to prevent this year) as well as developing a more refined layout (hopefully) in my first attempt at cottage gardening. I also want to add a good deal of plants to the strip of garden that we have running parallel to our driveway. It already has many elements of a cottage garden, and I want to add more...it has unfortunately been neglected for several years as none of us have had a lot of time to give to it.
Anyway, this is the plan that I have come up with for the corn crib thus far:
Well, at home we have this old corn crib, sitting on an octagonal concrete base. Last year my mom and niece came up with the idea to turn it into a summer house with plants growing up it...and we did to an extent. The mosquitoes were quite bad (something I'm going to try to prevent this year) as well as developing a more refined layout (hopefully) in my first attempt at cottage gardening. I also want to add a good deal of plants to the strip of garden that we have running parallel to our driveway. It already has many elements of a cottage garden, and I want to add more...it has unfortunately been neglected for several years as none of us have had a lot of time to give to it.
Anyway, this is the plan that I have come up with for the corn crib thus far:
"Okay, let me 'splain....no there is too much, let me sum up":
The octagonal shape is the base, the circle the corn crib structure. The stick sticking out between the two on the lower left is the door into the corn crib. The two circular shapes I want to be terracotta pots that I intend to plant clematis in. The other rectangular shapes will be simple wooden planter boxes...which I want to plant a mixture of sweet peas, morning glories & moon flowers in...as well as some other plants, perhaps. I haven't figured out what other plants I want to fill out the boxes with.
At the moment there is a "camping" hammock hanging in the corn crib, a small child's camp folding chair and an old red and white plastic cooler...oh yeah and the old lid of our charcoal grill...What I would like to do is, leave the hammock, but lose everything else. Buy a fire ring for the center and situate two chairs with a small table between them for sitting and having tea...
Though I do still have mosquitoes to deal with....hmmmm research time...
Moon-lit revelation
Last night as I left work to drive home in our 1984 Chevy Scottsdale truck, I was struck with the beauty of the (still) snowy landscape as it was lit by the nearly full moon. Now our Chevy truck (named Larry) doesn't have a working stereo, so unless I bring my MP3 player or sing to myself I find myself thinking about strange things...
Last night, for some reason the Monroe City Band Christmas party popped into my head. I have a couple girls in the 2nd flute section with me that we have been together almost since high school (after taking a break for college/kids-what have you) and we were all sitting together. (Their names are Melissa and Tiffany) Now both of these girls had their boyfriends with them, and Melissa's brother was sitting with us as well (with their father). Her brother plays in percussion, particularly the kettledrums.
Anyway, as we were all getting ready to leave, he came up to me and said that he wanted to make sure to wish me a merry Christmas because I had come alone. It was really awkward, and I assured him that I had come with my parents (which was true, and I've never brought someone with me...there has never been anyone to bring). well, for some reason this comment had bothered me then (partly because I thought he had a bit of a crush on me and he was just awkward to the 10th degree) and so as I was driving, enjoying the full moon on the snowy rolling hills around me I started talking to myself....
"What is so wrong with being alone?"
Then it hit me, there was nothing wrong. I am almost perfectly content with my life as it is. I don't need a man to fulfill my life, to make me feel fulfilled. I have my work (which I enjoy), my hobbies (which I love), my friends (when I get to see them), my parents (whom I love), and a wonderful family....
So, as I continued down the road, I started to sing "What a Wonderful World" and truly felt at peace with myself and the world around me....
So there it is, I am not unhappy being alone. I have things which round out my life and give me a sense of fulfillment...who knows, maybe I will end up like Beatrix (not the losing her first love part) and find happiness at the age of 49...
Whatever God has in store for me, I am certain it will be wonderful and I am content to wait until he has decided the timing is right, or if it is not his plan then I will continue on in my life as I have continued on for the last 27 years.
Maybe somewhere in the future there will be a country cottage with a crazy roommate, a large garden and lots of animals...(more dogs than cats...) That would make me very happy indeed.
Last night, for some reason the Monroe City Band Christmas party popped into my head. I have a couple girls in the 2nd flute section with me that we have been together almost since high school (after taking a break for college/kids-what have you) and we were all sitting together. (Their names are Melissa and Tiffany) Now both of these girls had their boyfriends with them, and Melissa's brother was sitting with us as well (with their father). Her brother plays in percussion, particularly the kettledrums.
Anyway, as we were all getting ready to leave, he came up to me and said that he wanted to make sure to wish me a merry Christmas because I had come alone. It was really awkward, and I assured him that I had come with my parents (which was true, and I've never brought someone with me...there has never been anyone to bring). well, for some reason this comment had bothered me then (partly because I thought he had a bit of a crush on me and he was just awkward to the 10th degree) and so as I was driving, enjoying the full moon on the snowy rolling hills around me I started talking to myself....
"What is so wrong with being alone?"
Then it hit me, there was nothing wrong. I am almost perfectly content with my life as it is. I don't need a man to fulfill my life, to make me feel fulfilled. I have my work (which I enjoy), my hobbies (which I love), my friends (when I get to see them), my parents (whom I love), and a wonderful family....
So, as I continued down the road, I started to sing "What a Wonderful World" and truly felt at peace with myself and the world around me....
So there it is, I am not unhappy being alone. I have things which round out my life and give me a sense of fulfillment...who knows, maybe I will end up like Beatrix (not the losing her first love part) and find happiness at the age of 49...
Whatever God has in store for me, I am certain it will be wonderful and I am content to wait until he has decided the timing is right, or if it is not his plan then I will continue on in my life as I have continued on for the last 27 years.
Maybe somewhere in the future there will be a country cottage with a crazy roommate, a large garden and lots of animals...(more dogs than cats...) That would make me very happy indeed.
How would you feel about and Irish Wolf Hound, Pam?
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