Yesterday I went down and joined Pamela in the celebration of St. Patrick's Day in Rockton, IL. First we went to Rockton Inn where we listened to a mediocre Irish band (the lady wasn't even playing an Irish Flute and their enuciation was terrible) however, it was hilarious when they were instructing the totally non-interested audience how to clap to a song and the lady was saying "clap, clap, clap, clap" and then "Clap, clap" and then "clap" into her microphone while a lady at an adjoining table was ernestly attempting to follow the directions.
We had apple dumplings with caramel and vanilla icecream and I had a grasshopper while Pam had spiced hot chocolate. We were so full that we returned later for Pam's green beer (which she was unable to have) so she had a Killian's instead. I tried a new drink and like it. UVblue with Lemonade...it tasted kind of like blue raspberry and was yummy.
We talked a lot, which was really really good. And stayed up late (well for me).
Some of the talk started me to thinking again, however. We did talk a good bit about Timber-lee, because that's where we met and we've both been through some experiences there lately...and not so lately...but it got me to thinking. And really, Camping is where I have been the happiest in all of my work "life." I particularly would like to be involved in Christian Outdoor Education. So I have begun to look around on CCCA.org at their job listings.
It is a little frustrating because many of the positions listed at this time are summer positions, and I'm sort of past summer positions. It is hard to leave your job for 3 months and then come back and have to find another. I would love a position in guest services or a nature center environment or like I said, as an OE instructor. We'll have to see where this is going to lead (if anywhere) and where God is going to lead me.
In some ways I feel like I am supposed to be home with Mom and Dad right now, and yet I feel as though I am walking along the shores of the "Sea of Lonliness" and it is going on forever. I don't quite rightly know if I am just being impatient, but this is the desire that has been almost burning on my heart since many of my friends began posting that they would be returning to Timber-lee for this coming summer. While I don't exactly feel that Timber-lee is where I am supposed to be anymore, I would love to continue to serve somewhere in the wonderful and unique environment that Camping creates.
I relate so well to this stuff you've described ... I do think that it's good that you're home with your family right now, but I also understand the desire to be a part of your calling and to be in community. Sometimes you can't have both.
ReplyDeleteClap ... clap clap!
Thanks for coming over. It was really great to see you and spend some time with you in real life. :)