Mid-November doldrums

It is the beginning of Week 3.  NaNoWriMo is sitting there, patiently waiting for me.  Of course, the curse of week two has held off and is hitting me rolling as I move forward into week three.

Also, there are other issues pressing on my mind.

I am come to the difficult portion of my book.  At least the difficult part for me to write.  I must now fully introduce my villain.  My "Big Bad."  I am not good at this.  Partly because I don't like to delve into things that are dark and difficult.  I don't want them hiding there in the back of my mind as so many things are wont to do.

But, in order for my story to move forward, I must write.  I must put fingers to keyboard and plow ahead.  I must make my characters fight, I must have my heroine face a man who is truly insane.  I must make her go through fear and grief, so that she can come out the other side, stronger and more whole.  So that she can move on to what lies ahead for her.  And such wonderful things lie ahead.

And so, while I sit here, while I scrub things at work, while I slice potatoes (though I will be keeping my mind on the knife blade in this scenario) I will consider, I will think, I will plan.  I will persevere.
Because...This year I will win!  This year, I shall write 50,000 words in 30 days.  This year I will revel in the wonder that is imagination and the glory that is the accomplishment of having written.

Also, because this will help to distract my distracted thoughts.  This will give me something to focus on.  This will help me to work through my own personal demons.  This will help me to come out stronger and more whole.  Isn't it funny how that works?

And so, after Awana tonight (since my Girls depend on me to come) I will sit down at my computer.  I will start playing my book's soundtrack, and I will send my two characters on this final leg of their journey.  The one that will bring them face-to-face with their darkest fears.  And I will keep moving ahead.  I must make progress, I must move forward.

This is my battle cry!  Bring me week's three and four!  I can do this!  I can win!  I can write!